Tuesday, October 18, 2011

i hate the hearing or knowing the people around me are having a bad time . as long as they're not the people i dislike , i'll bother about it . especially when i'm notified that they're having a bad relationship . damn , they look sweet and blissful . what in the world happened ? things just always happen this way . why ? pfft ..

you're just a memory at the back of my mind . i doubt you even realise how much you've did to me do you ? i don't know if you've done the same things to some other girls . if you did , whatever fucker . if you didn't , then why in the hell me ? why does it have to be me ? it's not like i've did somethings that hurt you . well , in fact i don't even know you . but guess what , i didn't regret from having that little yet pathetic memories with you . i didn't regret liking you for almost a month . i didn't regret looking through someone's window to notice you . and hell fuck die to all your empty sorries which are not sorry at all .

you're important . really really . seriously , very very , undescribeable important to me . that's why i chose to break up with you in the first place . you're always the guy that's gotten hurt here and there . taken and abandon . and i'm really sorry i'm one of them . i took you . because you're really what i've ever wanted . and really , you're just the great guy . and i'm merely someone , which i clearly know that , would hurt you sooner or later . and i know i'll lose you then . that's why , i abandoned you . just to let us stick as friends . just to let us quickly able to stand back on our feet to heal and wouldn't hurt that much . but i didn't realise , it doesn't go that way for you . and i'm really sorry . i'm starting to feel that i'm about to lose you , even as a friend . i'm sorry i look as if i'm making use of you to complain about how much my current boyf sucks at time . i'm sorry that i've always look for you only when i needed to complain . but you're really more than a complaining machine to me . you're not the one that i'll ever be with again . but still , you're really more important than someone i would want to spend the rest of my live with . it's the truth .