ever wondered why i'm still hanging around by your side ?
ever remembered to wish me a happy anniversary ?
ever wondered why i'm always asking to meet you and when you don't i get angry ?
ever remembered that i said one last time , no more ?
so do you ever , ever wondered why i choose you ?
even if it's just one question from the above that you can only answer , it's okay . i just need one answer , ever wondered any of these ? or you don't even bother ? despite so many negative obstacles and talkings and critisims , all the boundaries , i didn't leave . i'm still hanging here , being someone who just keeps waiting and tolerating . whether you've done anything just to step back for me , even if you did , yahs , as the matter of fact , i don't see any .
i'm still hanging around not because "break-up" is something i can't tell you . it's not that i promised i wouldn't leave so even if i've nothing for you anymore , i'll still keep the promise like a stupid idiot . i'm staying because i love you . and the last reason i'll ever use to break up with you is , i don't love you anymore . the female lead character of " great expectations " , just makes me think i'm like her . stupidly waiting for something that is worthless . all i need is for you to choose - continue ? or you want a break up ? i'm letting you choose . whichever you choose , i still love you . if you're leaving then i'll just have to find a way to get over it .
i don't need any presents or surprise . all i need is a " baby , happy anniverysary " . but ? not a single msg , call or wish . nothing . or should i say it in this way ? - you don't even remember our anniversary do you ?
meeting you is because i needed to see you . every bad happenings that i have or anything sad things that i have on the day , i want you to be there . but since you don't like to hear all my complains , then forget about it . then at the least can i see you ? seeing you , to me , has always been a way of making me forget all the unhappy stuff . at the least , for a moment i can forget about everything . but if meeting me when i ask to ( most importantly i'm always the one asking you meet me . excuse me , you're my boyf ) , and you reject ( which is totally ungentleman and bastard ) , then i'm like being unhappy the whole day . it's like when i need you , where are you ?
i'm always telling you , one last time . one more time and it's over . but i just let it pass . so did you realise that ?
why i choose you ? cause i trusted you'll be the guy you said you would . remembered what you said to me ? " i'll be better than him . confirm ! " and ? you're no where better , really .