Wednesday, December 7, 2011

heartache

you know it's kind of heartbreaking when someone you love keeps trying to send you away . as in the feeling of it . i mean , seriously . i do know clearly that i have curfew and the parents i have . i know that clearer than anyone alright ? but there's no need to try and do things like keep asking me to go home before my mom starts to nag and so on .
i know you're afraid that my mom will see us together somewhere , anywhere in singapore . i know , and thanks for being so sweet in thinking for me . but seriously , if i , or the both of us , have to keep thinking of the places we go , example places near my house , that my family would see me , then wouldn't it be that the both of us would be always frantic ? and the worst thing is that , you think more than me . you're even more afraid to be caught or seen than me . and i know what are my limits . so stop asking my to go home early . i hate it when someone keeps asking me to go home . seriously , i will go home , so don't tell me to .
it's kind of normal for you to keep asking me to go home . but today , is really really the day where i really hate it when you ask me to go home . 1 plus , i saw you . 6 plus i have to go . and it's not like i don't have the time this time . it's you who can't spend time with me . and the feeling really sucks . and the worst part is , you're going to be away from today , few more hours , and a duration of 2 weeks . how can i not miss you ? and i'm dumb enough to even forget to take a picture of the both of us together . but i guess it's not a bad idea either . at the least i wouldn't think so much . the thing is , today , last day of spending my time with you . and yet , you're trying to push me away because you're going to meet your brothers . seriously ? and you expect me to not be sad ? the hug and kiss from you before i went home , feels like it's goodbye . i know it's 2 weeks only . but it just feel so ..
maybe it's just me ..