it's the sixth sense

it's all about the sixth sense . oh please ! seriously , don't you even remember or know that girls have this thing that really benefits us so so much in our life ? so just trust me , i know somethings wrong

you just make my day

there's just so many reason why i'm falling for you . all those little things . i don't need a very obvious act of your's that will make me fall for you . just those small things . they're much enough for me . i'm easily cheered up . that of course apply to all my moods . i can be slow , i can be mean and demanding . you accpet them all . you use your way to care and love me . you change only when it's the priority thing that's important for our relationship . i just love the way you are . you're just such a sweetheart . though there are times where you can get on my nerves . and all the bad times we been through . and god knows how a girl is able to take it all and survive through . i'm glad i didn't make the choice in leaving you . well , now , what can i say ? i can't bear to leave you . i love you (:

I'm fat

lately , when start to get upset , i would start to eat . it's like i'm a muchin' monster . i bet i'm getting fatter already . hope no one really notice that . heheheheh ..

urge .. sore throat . not super pain but just that the sore feeling makes me able to predict that i'm gonna have a hard time for the next few days . baobei is having a bad sore throat too . cause he " geh kiang " . act pro , don't want lose face , keep shouting during his bmt . a bit heart pain . hahahahs . but somehow also think he deserve it , keep shouting !! hahahahs .

okay , don't know what to say . i really miss him a lot

turns out

i feel like , i'm falling for you more than i've expected . and it's really frightening me . i've gave everything and anything to love . but what i had in return was a heart full of pain . i told myself not to fall in love more than the guy does . but it seems like it's going to happen . everytime you're away from me , instead of loving you lesser , the feelings for you just grows and grows . guess that's distance makes the love fonder ? but the times we have , to be away from each other , is just so easy to get . my feelings for you are growing , is yours ? if yours too are growing , then i guess i'm fine with me loving you more . but instead your feelings for me are decreasing , then i don't see the reason why i should let myself sink in more .

i'm selfish . i'm just afraid i'll get hurt again

pray

i want to pray that what i had happened to me before would not happen again .

i want to pray that history wouldn't repeat .

i want to pray that things would only be better .

i want to pray that the choice i've made wouldn't turn out to make me regret .

i want to pray that i would have happy endings .

i want to pray that what i have would last .

i want to pray that you'll be here forever more .

i want to pray that .. what i've prayed would come true .

you're just that important to me .

IMY badly ..

Including 8 dec , it's the 5th day already . And everyday , I'm wondering , what am i suppose to do while you're away . And for once , i feel that going out while you're away is such a boring thing . I mean I'm always going out . When you're around , I'll be out a lot . Now that you're away , I don't even have the mood to go out . But if i don't go out , I'll feel very weird . So , that feeling is really really very uncomfortable . Nothing just seem smooth or nice to me these few days . Come back soon .. Urge ...

True true (:

what i need

come away with me

insonmia

sigh ...

Currently , I'm trying to figure out what am i going to do to occupy myself while you're away :/ Life's just much more boring and lonely without you ): I've been downloading songs to keep myself occupy . Well , it helps me to spend a few hours . Today went out with Michelle girlfy . There, i spent a few hours too . Still , 24hours just seems too long for me . It's only the 2nd day . It's not like you could come back in advance . Guess I'll just have to find some ways then . See ? Get what i mean when i say I'm too dependent on you already ? :/

heartache

you know it's kind of heartbreaking when someone you love keeps trying to send you away . as in the feeling of it . i mean , seriously . i do know clearly that i have curfew and the parents i have . i know that clearer than anyone alright ? but there's no need to try and do things like keep asking me to go home before my mom starts to nag and so on .

i know you're afraid that my mom will see us together somewhere , anywhere in singapore . i know , and thanks for being so sweet in thinking for me . but seriously , if i , or the both of us , have to keep thinking of the places we go , example places near my house , that my family would see me , then wouldn't it be that the both of us would be always frantic ? and the worst thing is that , you think more than me . you're even more afraid to be caught or seen than me . and i know what are my limits . so stop asking my to go home early . i hate it when someone keeps asking me to go home . seriously , i will go home , so don't tell me to .

it's kind of normal for you to keep asking me to go home . but today , is really really the day where i really hate it when you ask me to go home . 1 plus , i saw you . 6 plus i have to go . and it's not like i don't have the time this time . it's you who can't spend time with me . and the feeling really sucks . and the worst part is , you're going to be away from today , few more hours , and a duration of 2 weeks . how can i not miss you ? and i'm dumb enough to even forget to take a picture of the both of us together . but i guess it's not a bad idea either . at the least i wouldn't think so much . the thing is , today , last day of spending my time with you . and yet , you're trying to push me away because you're going to meet your brothers . seriously ? and you expect me to not be sad ? the hug and kiss from you before i went home , feels like it's goodbye . i know it's 2 weeks only . but it just feel so ..

maybe it's just me ..

2 more days

in just 2 days time , you're gonna go for your ns . okay , i sound like i'm making a fuss out of it . and you'll be coming out in 2 weeks time . but why is it that i just feel so lost ? it's as if you'll be away for a month or so . and worst , i've the urge to cry .

i'll really miss you a lot , and i do hope you'll realise how much that would be . so please be safe with whatever you're gonna be doing in there . i mean i don't know what the fuck is in there anyway . so please be careful alright ? :/

seriously , feel damn lost now . ahh ..