i don't know . i thought i didn't love you enough . but just when the thought that you're going in ns soon , just 7 days away , i cried . i'm afraid something would happen . i'm afraid things would change . i'm scared that you wouldn't be by my side when you're away . i'm afraid you would get hurt . i don't know . i'm just afraid that i'll miss you too much . but i don't know why that would lead me to crying this bad .