Saturday, November 26, 2011

can't help it

when i thought i've been hurt enough , one love came and healed it . when i thought i've been healed completely , that love went away , for no reason . and the worst part is , this love , hurts more than the previous one .
just when i thought i can put in all i have , the reciever gave me a slap and i snapped to reality . things isn't as perfect as i think it would . just when i thought i was steadily balanced on this relationship , the captain of my heart flip the boat upside down , causing me to drown .
i thought i could heal , i thought i could smile . i thought i could forget , i thought i could forgive . i thought i could be better , i thought i could be happier . i thought i could .. but i couldn't . i can't . and , i got no idea why .
every breath i couldn't catch , every tear that i couldn't hold back , every pain i couldn't ignore , every memories i couldn't throw aside , everything i couldn't do just because of you , the only thing i'm sorry about , is i'm sorry i couldn't defend myself , i didn't protect myself .