I wish ..

many times , most of the times , i envy the couples around me . those girls who have their boyf meeting them after school or seeing each other everyday . i envy their them for having a boyf who pamper them so much . i envy them for having a boyf who would talk on the phone with them for hours . i envy them for having a relationship that i long for .

i turned my conditions of having a relationship to so low . and yet , none has been fufilled . none can be done . instead , it seems like , i'm the one who's granting your needs . why should i be the only one giving in ? can't you at the least think in my shoes ?

i miss you , freaking lot . and there are times where i would miss you so much that i would feel like crying . an example , now . and i'm really crying . longing to see you . i was hoping that i could see you today . for a bit . you saw me i guess . but i didn't . not even a glimpse . when are you appearing in front of me ? when are you gonna hug me ? when are you gonna , at the least just be within my sight ? it's been more than a month . 28 or 29 then we can meet ? i don't even want to wait anymore . people are saying how can i even bear€ for such time not seeing you . i smiled , saying , you're busy . deep down inside , in my heart , i'm thinking , i can't take it , but what can i do ? we don't even talk on the phone for that one whole month too . and finally i hear your voice today , for 15 secs .

am i just that pathetic ?