being dependent and over trusting people , is what i've always grown out to be . from getting bullied , to changing , to lying , to so much other worst stuff . no matter how strong i appeared in front of other people , my fragile side just seems to leak out at times . people who made me depend and trust them , 90 percent are those who i shouldn't have even know them . the rest , 4 percent will always be there for me , no matter when , where or what . the remaining 6 percent are comes and goes though they're dependable and trustable . my fifthmay , supposingly to be the 1st person from the 4 percent , turns out to be more of one of the people that should be in 90 percent category . the worst part is that , i turned out to be so dependent and trusting that person that , i end up , with scars , wounds , angers , tears and all sorts of negative things you can ever think of . that fifthmay , i dont want to be dependent on you . i can trust you , but not much . i'll learn to restrict myself . cause it's clearly that you'll not be there for me when i need you . how'll we will end up , i'm sure , it's pretty clear and i bet , you've expected it . but i still want to hold on . why ?