It's been long since I've been out chilling with friends . I've been coping with studies and staying at home since the day your NS started , somehow . Well , at least 89% is what I've did during the holidays . Why ? Simple , no mood . The 1st 2 weeks , I've been trying not to miss you . Well , it's hard though . No , more like missing you has always been hard . So how ? Tell me ? I don't want this . Not all this I'm missing you too much thing . I had that feeling before , and it just sucks like mad . And what happen ? I ending depending so much that when everything crashes , i had a super hard hell of a lifetime trying to get over it . Now i have to get over it again ? I really not as strong as you think . And no i don't want to tell you that I've miss you till I'm crying . Today in the movie theater , we watched a movie together . You haven't watched a movie for very long . Me here , as a matter of fact , miss watching movies with you . Watching movie is the thing we will always do whenever we meet . No matter what time it is , we'll always have a movie together . And the days without watching movie with you , is just so hard . Am i extravaganting things ? You're just going NS and I'm being like this way ? I know things are hard for you in camp . That's why i can't use the crying thing to pressure you . To me now , as long as i can be strong in front of you , i will . When i can swallow down all those sorrow , i will . I can't show you how much i miss you when I'm with you . The smell of your shirt , your hugs , you holding my hand , how much i miss them . If i can , i would hug you and cry in your arms . During the movie , i wrapped my arms around yours . When i leaned my head on your shoulder , and i smelled your shirt , I couldn't bear but let a few tears out . What have you done to make me miss you so much ? It's just tiring and torturing . But all i can tell myself is , just smile . Things will pass fast and well .
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Tiring and torturing
It's been long since I've been out chilling with friends . I've been coping with studies and staying at home since the day your NS started , somehow . Well , at least 89% is what I've did during the holidays . Why ? Simple , no mood . The 1st 2 weeks , I've been trying not to miss you . Well , it's hard though . No , more like missing you has always been hard . So how ? Tell me ? I don't want this . Not all this I'm missing you too much thing . I had that feeling before , and it just sucks like mad . And what happen ? I ending depending so much that when everything crashes , i had a super hard hell of a lifetime trying to get over it . Now i have to get over it again ? I really not as strong as you think . And no i don't want to tell you that I've miss you till I'm crying . Today in the movie theater , we watched a movie together . You haven't watched a movie for very long . Me here , as a matter of fact , miss watching movies with you . Watching movie is the thing we will always do whenever we meet . No matter what time it is , we'll always have a movie together . And the days without watching movie with you , is just so hard . Am i extravaganting things ? You're just going NS and I'm being like this way ? I know things are hard for you in camp . That's why i can't use the crying thing to pressure you . To me now , as long as i can be strong in front of you , i will . When i can swallow down all those sorrow , i will . I can't show you how much i miss you when I'm with you . The smell of your shirt , your hugs , you holding my hand , how much i miss them . If i can , i would hug you and cry in your arms . During the movie , i wrapped my arms around yours . When i leaned my head on your shoulder , and i smelled your shirt , I couldn't bear but let a few tears out . What have you done to make me miss you so much ? It's just tiring and torturing . But all i can tell myself is , just smile . Things will pass fast and well .