reflects

i've got this really bad habit of after watching a show , i would start thinking what if it happens on me ? i was watching this show , korean - secret garden . really addictive and nice show . though i didn't start from the beginning , but i roughly get the idea of it . some spell have been casted on this male lead . both leads are madly in love couples . something happened to female lead causing her to have coma . and here's the thing . whenever it rains , male lead's soul would swap with female lead . the love they have is so strong that , male lead sacrifice himself just to let female lead live . he has everything in the whole . but all he need is his woman to be alive , even if it means that he have to be in coma and die soon . thus , he went to the hospital in the middle of the night , carrying female lead away . he drove to the region near seoul with female lead , to the place where it's about to rain . then both soul swapped bodies . k , pause . this is just part of the whole show thing . this guy practically can do anything and everything for this woman . how many guys can do that ? and of course , so does the female lead . everything they do , they do for each other . if one dies , another's in hell . how madly in love can they be ? sometimes , all i want is a guy who can at least , just be his part . like what a boyf should be . i don't ask that he'd die for me . all i want is that , he just love me for who i am and truly . not just playing around with my feelings . i'm always scaring myself that he's not true towards me , the thing i'm afraid most . i love him . does he ? i hope he means it