first , i remind me that i used to be told for my problems . i tried changing . and i did change . but i ended having the same problems . when i change group a don't like . when i don't change group b don't like . so to me , i've given up in the idea of " changing to become better " whole load of shit . so maybe she did change , just that like me , the end product is the same . so she gave up . well , what's the point of changing ? selfish way of saying - i live for myself , not others . i'm the one who's living in this whole load of attitude , mood , character . it's me . so why do i have to change to what people hope for me to be . it's true that it'll help in life . but if changing is really that easy , then i can be spiderman tomorrow and superman the day after and powerpuff girls the day after i've been superman , isn't it ? so , kinda can understand her state of confusement and not understanding why people are judging her .
second , i've tried making people to trust that there are people who want to change . first 2 were fucking failures because since they've decided to trash their life with their own hands then they are crossed out of my " i thought i can trust you so i did and helped you " list . there's no point in wasting my time with people who don't want change when they say they needed help and hope for my trust and helping hand . son of a liar , just shut the fuck up and just go find jesus , maybe he'll help you in your " talk only " words . but there's this one person who did change - mr boyf . he did change . well , i know alright ? although they're small and slow changes , still i appreciate it . maybe to others they hope for big changes , immediate changes . me ? take your time . little changes make big differences . you were a fucking bastard . were . but now you've changed isn't it ? and i'm glad i trusted you and didn't let . best of all , you didn't disappoint me . while on the other hand , she's always saying she's tired of changing and people judging her . hey , ever wonder why it's " people " judging you and not " person " judging you ? it's a whole load of diff alright ? get that in you . just take your time , no ones rushing you . people do hope you to become a better person . and thanks to you , you changed me to . changed me to become a fucking tolerent meter . no joke . all the things we been through before , i learn to bear bear bear and bear with everything . it doesn't seem on the outside but it's true . so i hope you'll become better too . no hard feelings . we're chill . it's just that i can understand the whole thng . it's irritating . but if you're the one who has to do something , then do it . before you start regretting