you're asking me back . and it's obvious that things will still be the same . my hearts screaming " just say yes ! " . but my mind's like " no , he's not that guy , yet " . i mean seriously . it's either i risk to get hurt or he change and we get back together . i want him . and the truth is , i may not need him , but he's just still as irreplaceable and important and definitely loved to me . he's the guy that i wanna be with . there may be some other guy in the future , like durh ? still for now , he's all i want . no one else . i'm waiting for all that provings , insurance , definite assurance and 100€€ percent sincerity from him , for me . i need them first before i can have him . to protect myself from him , to make him guilty and griefs when he can't keep those assurance . evil and selfish ain't i ? but that's what i've learnt from what we had before . i'm sorry . i miss you badly too , i just don't wanna say it . i don't wanna seem so soft-hearted and weak towards you . if i do , you'll definitely get your way through to trick me . i know okay ? i guess , i'll just have to wait then :/